Yet another early morning. The response to my petition for divorce revealed nothing new except that he wants to claim one of the kids on his taxes. Hmmmm, wonder if that should be the one he DIDN'T molest?
His response also listed that there wasn't any order for protection involved in our proceedings. Yeah, makes me wonder if his lawyer screwed up and wrote the wrong thing or he just conveniently forgot to tell his lawyer the truth. Makes me wonder if his lawyer knows anything about the criminal case. STBX is an idiot, but he can't possibly think this is something he can keep quiet. I called and left a message with my lawyer, whom I am now calling C_ nt Face, to point this fact out but I'm sure she'll do another airy fairy wave of her hand and blow me off. It will all come out in the wash...nothing will happen without me knowing about it...patience is once again a virtue. I want to take my copies of the order for protection and the county prosecutor's charges to his lawyer and say "Here's the rest of the story", but somehow, I think that would be a no no. It might make C_nt Face cranky. As we all know, there's nothing worse than a cranky c_nt.
I want to get this over because the very fact that I am still married to this person makes me want to vomit. I am tempted to pay for our name change myself simply to get the process rolling. Everytime I hear someone say my first name with his last name, it's like getting whipped across the face. I hear the words he said to my daughter. I see the things he did. There are times when I have to excuse myself and go to the bathroom where I become physically ill. It would actually be a great party trick, I should hire myself out to the circus.
It's hard to know how to proceed with so much up in the air. I'm certainly going to stand up for the idea that he can only claim one of our kids on his taxes if he is actually paying child support and actually filing an income tax return. These are two things he won't be doing if he's incarcerated. I'll be damned if I'm going to agree to letting him claim one of the kids and then not be able to claim that child myself when he's locked up.
I'm sure C_nt Face will just give me another airy fairy wave. Don't worry! Relax!
I also don't want him trying to claim a child on his taxes after they start college. I'm fuzzy on how that might work but I'll be damned if I'm going to have any contact with this asshole to check in and get a copy of his taxes so I can fill out financial aid information for college.
This all leads me to question if I should just forgo asking for child support. If he isn't paying child support, he can't claim anything on his taxes. If he's incarcerated, he won't be paying child support anyway. If...If....If...If...If
The faster that I want all this to proceed, the more I realize I should slow down. I shouldn't sign anything until I know what will happen in his criminal case.
Which means I will be the one standing in the middle of the room, flames licking my skin, burning as I wait. It hurts like hell, but it gives a lovely glow.