I went and got a second opinion regarding what to do when I'm supposed to have an MRI but I can't afford it. I've basically given up on the system and I just wanted to know what I can do for myself to take the best care of myself.
I went to the Lake Superior Health Care Center, where I started this journey almost two years ago. I wanted to see Nancy Sudak because I have heard many good things about her and she is a doctor that also believes in complimentary medicine.
All I wanted was an alphabet soup of what vitamins to take. I got that, but I also have an appointment to see a neurologist tomorrow.
Since she deals with people everyday that don't have insurance, she totally understood what I was talking about. She is going to explain to them that they will have to do good old fashioned neurology with no expensive diagnostics. She then prepared me for the fact that they might not be able to come up with anything definitive and they might not be the warmest, fuzziest doctors I've ever seen.
After seeing the pulmonologist that was the biggest horse's ass EVER, I am fully prepared. As a matter of fact, I am more prepared because I have an incredible sense about me that I no longer give a shit. My life for the past five months: abandon all hope, ye who enter here.
Once you get to that point, everything is gravy.
What, my house only cost $8,000 to fix and not $10,000?
What, my job is only cutting my salary by 5% and not 6%?
What, my husband only cheated on me with one person, not two?
What, my husband only molested his own child and not the neighbors?
What, I only have MS and not a tumor?
See. Abandon all hope and you can convince yourself that everything is OK.