Throughout all of the last two weeks, I've been skittering around trying to either stoke fires or put out fires. From police to social worker to gas company to bank to courthouse. I feel like a pinball.
It's usually when the day is done that I start to look inward. Except that is, when the enormity of it all crashes down on my head in the middle of Mt. Royal Fine Foods or while I'm on the phone at work discussing printer cartridges. (Printer cartridges can be a VERY touchy subject for me).
I have different playlists on my Ipod for different moods and usually I have to keep it on "Cranky Camper" to even think about getting through the day. I am beginning to start my new playlist though I don't have a name for it yet. I already have an "Oh so sad" playlist but that doesn't really cover this situation. I'm not always sad. Sometimes I'm furious. Sometimes I'm broken. Sometimes I'm regretful. Sometimes I'm empty.
Since this is such a multi-layered issue with such poisonous implications, your run of the mill break up songs hardly apply. Not a lot of songs contain break up and jail time. (Hmmm perhaps I should start my own record label?)
I'm falling back on my favorite jazz singer a lot lately.
When I'm feeling vengeful? Definately "Gotcha" by Patricia Barber
Feeling broken? I recommend "Pieces" by Patricia Barber
Feeling regretful? I recommend "Fast Car" by Tracy Chapman
Feeling meloncholic and sad? There's always Cake with "Sad Songs and Waltzes"
Need a good song to get you through filling out an order of protection at the county courthouse? I recommend John Mayer's "Gravity"
This playlist is taking suggestions...I need a good song for "Going to the Divorce Lawyer" tomorrow. And if a single person recommends "D-I-V-O-R-C-E" I promise you, I will find you and give you the painful slap you soooooo deserve!